Searching for beautiful
By Nyrae Dawn
Before it happened…
Brynn had a group of best friends, a boyfriend who loved her, a growing talent for pottery. She had a life. And then…she had none.
After it happened…
Everything was lost. The boy she now knew never loved her. The friends who felt she betrayed their trust. The new life just beginning to grow inside her.
Brynn believes her future is as empty as her body until Christian, the boy next door, starts coming around. Playing his guitar and pushing her to create art once more. She meets some new friends at the local community center, plus even gets her dad to look her in the eye again…sort of. But letting someone in isn’t as easy as it seems.
Can Brynn open up her heart to truly find her life’s own beauty, when living for the after means letting go of the before?
We all make mistakes in our lives. Lies of omission aren’t received any better than outright lies. And high school is a pit of Vipers.
Brynn grew up with a real life love story, and was looking for the signs of her own love story. When her first brush with love ends abruptly, Brynn moves on to the typical high school romance; they break up, they get back together, they break up… It’s during one of those breaks she meets Jason, a boy with a rough home life, who calls her his beautiful. Brynn’s world had been turned upside down with the death of her mother, leaving her vulnerable to the persuasiveness of a pathological liar, who has no qualms about throwing her under the bus to save himself.
Searching for beautiful is the story of a young girl dealing with the fallout of a situation she was too young to have the tools to handle, and the one person she would’ve turned to is gone. Her “friends” have alienated her, and she tries to make it seem like she’s okay with being alone, because no one understands the pain she is going through. Sometimes life has a way of bringing a ray of light into our darkest places.
Christian has had his own dark days. He’s witnessed those he loves deal with situations that weren’t fair. But for the most part he’s found a way to deal with his new life, and he gets to move back into his old house and pick back up with his old friend’s, he’s pretty excited. But things in the old neighborhood aren’t the same as when he left. Maybe life knew what was in store for the girl next door and sent him away to help him develop the skills he would need to bring her back to the land of the living. And so he does.
Brynn isn’t necessarily wallowing in her misfortunes, but she’s definitely stuck in them. Christian gives her space, but doesn’t accept her excuses not to move forward. Their friendship begins to grow again. And there are times during the harsh moments of life there’s something beautiful to be found…you just have to search for it.
There were points in the book I was frustrated, but I kept turning the page. I would say one more chapter and then something would happen and I would have to read the next chapter. It’s definitely a YA book with adult themes. If you are looking for a book where teenagers act like thirty-year-olds (although I know thirty-year-olds who couldn’t deal with this), then this is the wrong book for you. However, if you can suspend the need for teenagers not to be teenagers, you’ll find a beautiful coming of age story.
Reviewed by Liz
Reviewed by Liz